Manifesting

The art of manifestation is one that I sometimes practice. It's when you have a very strong and urgent sense of certainty that something is about to happen, and you just KNOW it in your gut, and you PROJECT that certain and positive thought out into the cosmos....like, "I'm going to get the closest parking spot!" and you turn a corner, and there it is. Or, like when I was 12, I told all my junior high school girl friends that I was going to meet Steve Perry someday, and they all said I was a loon...but hey, I've met him twice so far, so NYAHHH on their doubting asses. Oh!! Oh!! And the time I told my best friend Laurie that I was going to win the "song of the day" contest on the radio, because it was "Girl Can't Help It," by Journey---and I WON $1,000 bucks that day....yesssssss....oh yesssss....manifestation is a fun thing.

I truly do like to manifest sometimes, but I don't always fully believe it, ya know? I have doubts. But I do it anyway. It's like a wishful daydream of something good happening, and with my typical bad luck, it doesn't really happen very often. But a few months ago I was all convinced that I had the most awesome idea of writing a kids' book, and I thought, "Let me send this to someone who will either validate and elate, or negatively crush me with a response," so I did. That was back in June. I long ago lost any hope that I would even GET a response, so I gave up on the whole thing, despite my manifesting that she would love it.

So I gave up manifesting since then, figuring I was just wasting my time. I also gave up on the book idea altogether, and put it somewhere in a box that I have yet to unpack.

But today, my manifestation came true. I'll explain momentarily.

In other news...my sister in England wrote to me today on facebook and told me that I'm a weirdo, because of my costume...I told her she's just jealous that we WON THE CONTEST...hehehehehe....and my feeling is, I may be a weirdo, but I'm goddamned SMART when it comes to what will win a Halloween costume contest, so shaddap and bite my ass.

Anyway, so I started my new job today and I wondered, if these people were to ever see these photos, would they still hire me?! Ehhhh, who the hell knows. I'm just glad to be sitting down at a desk again, rather than on my damned feet dealing with idiot crafty be-otches who need a 40% off coupon to buy a bag of beads that cost $2 bucks, ya know? "Ohhh, I'm sorry, I can't buy that item, it's already ON SALE, so I can't use my COUPON on it..." so I'd say, "But ma'am, um, it's only $1.99..." and they'd say, "No, please take that off, I'll need a refund on that if I can't use my coupon..." JEEZUS FUGGIN' CRIPES already. Retail just ain't my thing. If ya ain't got $2 bucks to buy a bag o'beads, and can't stop whinin' and whimperin' about a stupid ass COUPON, just get the fug outta my face and go buy a necklace that YOU DON'T HAVE TO MAKE YOURSELF for cripes' sake.

I really love shopping at Michael's craft store, but I really LOATHE working there. So now I'm workin' with some lawyers though...I don't know if I've gone from the fryin' pan to the fire or what. Time will tell I s'pose.

But back to my manifestation. I got a letter today from Miep Gies, and that makes me very very happy....she's been my friend since 1994 when I met her. If you don't know who she is, go to google and look her up. I'm not gonna spoon feed yer sorry butt. She's awesome and I love her like she's my own grandmother...and she finally got to answer my letter from JUNE that I mailed, along with my book idea that I've been working on. She says she and her buddy Cor Suijk (another friend of mine, look him up too), LOVE MY IDEA and they both love ME too...which is so cool I can't even tell you...I just have no words to describe how much I adore these two humans...they are the two people who have believed in me most over the years, and I am forever grateful to them for restoring my hope in the human race when I am at the point of wanting to step off from it altogether myself.

So, I hadn't heard from Miep in a long while and I figured they either didn't GET the book prototype I mailed to them, or they just didn't like it and were too polite to say so. But, I was wrong, and rather than give up on the idea, like I had because I felt discouraged by their lack of response, now I feel like I must move forward with it and get it published before Miep passes on.

God, she's 105 years old...so I gotta get busy. That woman means the world to me.

Anyway, so that's my thought for the day. I'm going to write and publish a book, and dedicate it to Miep Gies, in the year 2009. I've just made my first new year's resolution *(Slash)* manifestation.

HOORAY FOR BARACK OBAMA, WHO JUST WON THE ELECTION TO BE OUR NEXT PRESIDENT!! (Manifesting, manifesting, manifesting)....oh yesssss, I predict he will WIN!!! Now get off your dead ass and go VOTE goddammit!!

Bye for now. Love, Sassy Girl