I wanted to think that a new year brought new beginnings, but at the moment I'm dealing with the ending of something very important, and it's got me feeling sad. I know that a new beginning can only start after an ending...logically it makes perfect sense. But, since when does love really have much logic? It never has in my life at least.
Ah well, such is life I guess, ya just gotta roll with it. But does it have to feel like a steam roller crushing over your heart when it comes? I'm not sure if I can deal with it. I mean, I've avoided my bottle of wine in the fridge tonight, but I made apple cobbler instead. Either way it's gotta be something of comfort right now, so I chose dessert over booze this time. Last night it was the wine. Not sure what it'll be tomorrow night. I can't think that far ahead right now.
I am feeling like I have lost everything again. I feel very alone right now.
And so I'm going to bed now. Nothing much else to do really.
Yes I have been rethinking about this blog, and much to my own surprise, I feel like I should just stop writing altogether. Nobody cares how I feel about anything, why should I write it down.
--Sassy Girl
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