All is well again...

After explaining to Peter that I feel as though I'm doing something "wrong" without his permission to be naked, he finally understood where I'm coming from. I mean, I just wanted him to be INVOLVED in it somehow. I have no problem at all being naked on my own--I certainly can be naked while taking a shower and not feel like I'm being "wrong" somehow, but sometimes I need to feel that he has more control over me...so in order for me to just BE naked, happily walking around the house or sleeping that way or whatever, (sneaking outside in my yard when it's dark so the neighbors won't see I'm naked, etc)., I just feel like I'm doing something I should be ASKING PERMISSION to do. And he's the one I would naturally want to ask. But if he doesn't KNOW that, sense that, or understand that, and if he doesn't give me that permission, it makes me feel like he's punishing me or something, and it upsets me. I just wanted him to get involved with the decision of doing it, because I really feel an uncontrollable urge to BE NAKED...all the time.

I've never felt this way before.

I'm just uber-sensitive I think, dealing with this camp-drop mess. Nobody told me how I would feel after camp ended, so this is all new to me. BUT, Peter came over tonight and he told me that he wants me to be naked the rest of the night and even sleep that way, until I leave tomorrow morning. So that makes me feel MUCH better, like I'm doing it FOR HIM, as though he's kinda THERE WITH ME, even if he's NOT. And that makes me feel so relieved, I even started to cry when he finally said that. It's like a huge relief, to know he WANTS that of me, and it's not just my need that makes me want to do it. If I can do it for someone ELSE, that's much better than just doing it for myself. He's also going to help me with my backyard area, I think I'm going to put up some tarps around the perimeter fence so I can just go back there and be naked all I want to. I might even cut a "sun hole" in the top, but at least with a tarp I know the vanilla neighbors won't be lookin' at my nakedness and calling the friggin' cops on me. I've even looked into joining a vanilla nudist group locally, but then again, it's vanilla, and what fun is THAT?!!

Anyway, I managed to get in touch with 2 people from camp that I enjoyed meeting, and they invited me to Pittsburgh for the weekend. Peter gave me permission for that too, and I've never been there before, so that should be an interesting roadtrip! The guy who gave me the naughty orgasm massage at the spa at camp invited me to come see him perform in a play, so I'll be there on opening night to see it. I haven't been to a play in YEARS so that should be cool. His female friend who invited him to camp also invited me to stay overnight with her while I'm, there, so that is really cool. They might take me to a local dungeon play party too afterwards. Sounds good to me, it'll be almost like being back at camp again!! YAY!!

God, I had no idea how much I'd be missing that place...I really really do.

Bye for now.

Love, Sassy Girl