Ahhhhhhh yes, TGIF

Well, the blog entry from yesterday has been sent directly to JT and Lora, so I think even if they ignore it and delete it and diss me completely, at least I know my feelings were expressed, and that's all that matters. They can do with it what they like, or do nothing at all, I don't really care. Maybe I'll get sent a restraining order, who knows...LOL...after all I'm just a crazed lunatic fan.

In other news, Pete has not only coerced me into getting ON this roller coaster ride with him, but now he's pushed the bar down and locked me into it, and is starting the engine. I feel like I'm going along for the ride, no matter if I like it or not....I hope he knows I get motion-sickness. I might just puke on his shoes.

My brain hurts.

I feel overwhelmed by it all. Not only am I happy about this new guy who wants to lavish me with attention, but I'm freaked out by it, never having so much attention before in my whole life...and at the same time, I am sad about Peter, and I want to run to him as a security blanket too. I mean, if you put the days together side by side on a calendar, the 2 years I have been with Peter really only amount to a few months. With Pete, however, these weekends have added up to be about the SAME amount of time, it feels like, all at once, and that makes me feel SAD about Peter, like I'm realizing that it's really not as much as I had thought before with him. So I am happy about Pete, but at the same time, sad and mourning about Peter. This is messing up my head.

I told Peter today that I felt like digging a hole and hiding in it. He said he would toss me a blanket and a Journey CD to keep me company. Notice how he did NOT say he would crawl in with me and hold me awhile...therein lies the rub.

Pete says he'd "so be in that hole with me..." and I said, "You're always IN my hole damn you, sex fiend," and he laughed. He says he's IN love with me. How the hell did THAT happen in one month?! Doesn't that kind of thing happen in like, 8 or 10 months or a year?? I don't know what the usual timeframe is, really, but my GOD, one month? Is he DAFT?? That cannot be possible. I think his sci-fi time reflux machine has gone awry during the black hole warp speed turbo-powered flight into my life.

More later...time to go get my African son, Ben, from Union Station....

Love, Sassy Girl