A fresh perspective...

I am still reeling from Peter's message to Pete yesterday...I know very painfully just how difficult that was for him to do, and say, with convincing sincerity. I really do know just how hard that must have been for him...he's giving me permission to embark on a relationship adventure with a new Dom, and that's something out of left field that neither one of us ever saw coming. I really love Peter for that. It has endeared me to him very strongly and I am looking forward to seeing him later today to thank him. I believe we both are at the acknowledgment stage that my earlier statement might just, in fact, be happening...the beginning of the end of the relationship we've shared. It is somehow beginning to shift and change, but I am glad it won't end and it will continue to be an enriching part of my life for a long time. If things work out with Pete, then Peter will still be my friend no matter what, and I will always keep in touch with him. If things don't work out with Pete, I now know that I will always be welcome in Peter's life, and can go back to him.

It's really something that only very EVOLVED people can communicate and achieve, this agreement of ours. The normal average John Q. Public of the vanilla world has NEVER been able to get to that point in a relationship, hence, the skyrocketing divorce rate, domestic violence, etc., that plagues our society. Why can't they just EVOLVE into a higher level of consciousness? It takes a huge leap of faith to get there, but once you arrive, everything seems crystal clear in all things love-related.

As for Pete...once again he has blown me away...he's somehow cleansed my soul, cleared away the stuffy old cobwebs that have decorated my heart for so long...just in one simple email. This is how he greeted me this morning, and I am feeling more loved than I've ever felt before in my entire life.........
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Good morning dear,

I was thinking about some of the things we have talked about over the
last couple of weeks and I was struck with this thought.

You did not have a job at the USHMM because of Adolph Hitler. You had
the job because ultimately he was not successful in his goal. If he
had won, there would be no USHMM.

So I look at it as, you had that job, because an evil man was stopped.

I love you,
Pete
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...I never thought about it like that before. How easily Pete strives to offer a fresh new perspective on things that I have been convinced about and suffering about for years, in the blink of one short email---it amazes me. It's something that Peter has also done since I have known him too, but THAT particular subject, he's never approached in such a way with me. I have believed all these years that I've been going through hell in my own life BECAUSE I worked "for" Adolf Hitler at that Museum, and despite trying to do GOOD there, the evil that surrounds his spirit continued to plague me. Now, having read this simple short email from Pete, those cobwebs and negative feelings have been heaved off my shoulders...in the blink of an eye. How the hell does he DO that?!

I count myself to be very blessed to know this person. I have a brand new job that I like a lot so far, and a brand new Dom to explore with and learn with and grow with, in ADDITION to the one I've been with for two years...

I am a very lucky subbie indeed. Thank you God. Thank you Peter. Thank you Pete.

Love, Sassy Girl