Pete just announced that he's driving down to DC after he finishes performing in Seussical Saturday night, (complete with orange hair I assume...part of his costume as the Mayor of Who-ville), to spend one day with me, and to meet my Ghana "son," Ben. I bought Ben a train ticket to come spend the weekend in DC with me, to take him all around the place and dazzle him with his first trip to the US.
Before Peter, when I was with my vanilla-married guy for longer than 7 or 8 years, that I worked with, I told him my bedroom was HIS. It belonged to HIM. He was the only guy to ever set foot in it during my time in DC for those years. I loved him and that was just my way of saying "you own me, and this room, as long as you want to." He still comes over from time to time, though lately he's backed off because of this new Pete in my life I think.
When Peter first stepped into my bedroom, I freaked. It was not HIS ROOM...it belonged to my vanilla-married guy that I loved...it just messed up my head too much...I felt uncomfortable and wrong, and just dirty and gross...
But over time, with the departure of my 7-year-vanilla-married-guy who decided to stay home and be good with his wife, the room slowly changed and morphed into becoming Peter's room.
Now I will have Pete there this weekend. A whole month earlier than we orginally planned. The mental preparation I felt would be plenty of time to adjust, has now shrunk into a rushed OH MY GOD feeling of hyperventilation and panic. How the hell am I going to have Pete in the same room as PETER, who is there in spirit all the time, even when he's not there physically?!
God I'm such a slut.
----Oh WOW!! Melissa Etheridge is at Constitution Hall tonight....damn damn damn, I LOVE HER...crap...I didn't know...I just heard it on the radio. She is awesome...dammit. I want to go!! CRAP!! I wish I had money to go to concerts more often. I've always loved her music. Damn damn damn. Well, break a leg 'Lissa. God bless ya for being true to yourself and doing what you love most in life.
Sorry, I digress. I'm rather frazzled at the moment. Don't mind me. I'm just insane.
My brain hurts with all this soap opera lovelife shit. Totally new concept for me. I think I'm going to have to down a few wine coolers tonight.
Love, Sassy Girl
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