SAPPY SENTIMENTAL SILLY DOM MAN!!!

Ok....so I'm just as sappy and sentimental, what can I say? But I'm FEMALE. It kinda goes along with the territory.

I asked Pete to promise me he'll pay attention to his body and get checked if something isn't quite right, no matter how silly or small he might think it is...because I want him to stick around awhile. Here's what I sent him, and his reply follows...I'm feeling all gushy and mushy inside...good lord what a freak I am. I never thought I'd go for all that mush and gush!! It's just not my style!!

At one point while he was in the hospital, and the IV was dripping, I started to cry. Then I laid my head on his lap. Here's more...


On Jun 9, 2008, at 11:05 AM, [SASSY GIRL] wrote:

> That means so much to me, that you will do this promise...it's
> mostly for YOU, of course, but it does reassure me that you will
> stick around awhile.
>>
> Part of me cried yesterday about my grandma....that part was
> true...but the other part, which I couldn't bring myself to talk
> about....was that I felt if you died while I sat there with you,
> helpless to stop it, I would be totally LOST. I felt that if you
> go away now, just as things are starting to really feel hugely like
> love to me, I may never get another chance of finding someone who
> really loves me.
>>
> I was devastated when my Dom-friend Thom committed suicide. I felt
> like I had failed him. I didn't realize he was so far depressed, I
> didn't know, I wish I could have helped him somehow. All of these
> emotions came surging up on me unexpectedly yesterday when I
> started watching that IV drip into you. I never got to say goodbye
> to my grandma, and that kills me to this day. I never got to meet
> Thom in person. And if you died, I would never get the chance to
> really know what love is.
>
>> I just want that chance. And I want it with you.
>
>> Love, [SASSY GIRL]
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His reply:
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I will not go away.
This is not a threat, but a promise.
I will not go away through action.
I will not go away through inaction.
I want that chance with you too.
The seed has taken hold and is germinated.
Let's keep watering and feeding.
I am excited to see just how big and beautiful our love can grow.

Now, no more making the Dom cry at work!
Good tears and all, but gawd!



I felt so at peace yesterday when you slid over and laid your head on
my lap/belly/chest. You comfort me, encourage me, strengthen me,
challenge me.

Love,
Pete