And awayyyyy I go...

Pete and his son Nate will be here soon, so I can't write much but I wanted to say that today has been exhausting, to say the least, and I'm ready to hit the hay. The truck is parked, and I've been loading some things, but mostly just packing everything I possibly can before they get here. I have so much stuff, I can't even TELL you...I mean I have got a 24 foot truck here. Good Lord I need to scale down some of this crap.

Anyway, Peter helped me get the truck earlier this afternoon, and he told me that he's going to lunch tomorrow with Charlene...I introduced her to him yesterday when we had lunch together, and I think they hit it off pretty well. I told him he didn't waste much time getting with her, I mean SHIT DUDE I'm not even GONE YET, and already he's making the moves on this chick...sigh. I knew he would find somebody to replace me, I take a tiny bit of comfort knowing I helped him find Charlene though. At least I know he won't be hurt by her, and that she's trustworthy and decent.

MAJOR MELTDOWN yesterday though, I mean I woke up with my eyes so puffy they were almost swollen shut...and I had a killer headache and couldn't breathe very well. I cried most of the night. I didn't sleep very well. I've been up very early, packing and moving and doing some last minute shopping for birthdays that are coming up, etc.

Tomorrow is going to be a killer day for me, so I have to get busy and stay focused. This is not easy when my heart is breaking.

I hope I am not making the biggest mistake of my entire life by leaving DC.

I hope Pete is going to take good care of me. And I hope I'm not going to ache so much and hurt so much thinking about and missing Peter for too long.

Please God, help me get through this. I'm just so overwhelmed with very little time to process anything right now. I've been constantly on the go since last Friday, with hardly no "down time" to think things through. I'm not used to that at all. I'm going to miss this place, this house, this area...the trees...the trail I walk my dog on every day...the deer I see in the woods when we walk...I'm going to miss it.

I just hope Pittsburgh is worth all this. And I hope Pete is too.

Love, Sassy Girl