Wedding observations

The funniest thing I noticed at the wedding this past weekend, was the silly weird grin on David's face the whole time. I figured it was "love." But, Pete explained that the grin was the frozen, "Oh my God I'm really going through with this, what the hell am I doing, am I insane, holy crap this is really happening" look of most grooms standing at the altar. Ahhh. So that's it.

Other than that and one slight mistake in the recessional music by MOI on my flute, everything else seemed to go just fine. Luckily, the coolest thing about being a musician (in my opinion) is when you make a mistake, almost NOBODY NOTICES...hehehe
And if there IS someone who noticed, you can just look shocked when they ask you about it and say, "Actually no, that is how the music is written, I know, weird huh, really caught me off guard too." Just blame it on the composer!! They'll never double-check it! Who's gonna know?! Of course, that whole theory of mine is blown if you WINCE while you're doing it...luckily I don't wince.

Another funny moment...which Pete would disagree with, but I found rather humorous, was when we were being seated at the reception and he noticed our placecard had our names misspelled. Mine had an extra letter in it that didn't belong there, and his name was PETER. *chuckle*

Speaking of assholes...

The last email I got from Peter was one that really annoyed me. In the house I left behind in DC, one of the roommates who still live there has decided to move out, so I forwarded him the email she sent with her decision, and I told him I may have to move back there to find a new person to take over. It would be a temporary thing if I did, but I think he took it as "I'm moving back to DC permanently," and sure, I could very well transfer my current job to a location near there to continue working, while I'm trying to find someone new to move in, if need be. I could just stay there indefinitely if I wanted to, as well. I could just chuck it all, leave everything (except my dog) in Pennsylvania, and just move back to DC to get my other job back.

I don't know exactly what Peter was thinking when he read my email, but I didn't even ASK him to help me....if I had to go there, I would just live out of a suitcase for a few weeks until someone else decided to rent out the room...if need be, I could stay longer by transferring my job there....and if absolutely necessary, I could very well move back permanently. I have, in the past, told him I was not happy in PA for many reasons, but mostly because of my current crappy retail job that I loathe and that this was NOT what I had in mind when I moved here. My point was, I now have that opportunity---if I really wanted it. I did NOT say, "I AM MOVING BACK TO DC AND I WANT YOU TO HELP ME DO IT."

But I guess he just assumed that.....and just for the record, right before I left, he DID PROMISE that if things did not work out in PA, he WOULD help me move back. So he just jumped to that incorrect conclusion apparently, and that's when he told me that he was breaking that promise, that he would NOT help me move back. He feels that PA is the best place for me, but ya know what, he doesn't KNOW that, he doesn't take the time to TALK to me about the things that concern me here, he doesn't have any idea of how I feel or what problems I'm facing...I have made several attempts to talk to him, about various issues and problems and concerns, but he just doesn't seem to care. I mean, what if my life in PA was horribly miserable, what if Pete was mean and cruel and beating me all the time, abusing me, and I was seriously in need of assistance to move back? What the hell kind of "friend" is THAT, to say he can no longer honor that promise? He is supposed to be my FRIEND, if nothing else. That is the very common courtesy thing I would expect of someone I've been in a relationship with for 2.5 years, ya know? Friendship at least, I mean why is that such a difficult thing for him to do? Is he THAT insecure about being able to offer his friendship to me, did I bruise his fragile male ego by moving away? What the hell is his PROBLEM?

So, in typical Sassy Girl style, I told him that I most definitely WILL move back to DC with or without his assistance, if that's where things lead me. If the shit hits the fan here in PA, if Pete and I hit the skids and break up, then I most definitely WILL leave this place and go back to DC, and that is a promise. I don't NEED him to help me do anything anymore. He forgets that I moved to DC TWICE BEFORE without his help. Really it's his enormous ego that gets in the way sometimes. What a putz.

The only thing Peter's email did, was make me want to go toss a TRAILER HITCH through the front window of his house. A special calling card that only he would understand.

And mark my words, if he keeps this up, he's only going to make me want to hurt him back. I mean, why would he deliberately hurt my feelings like that, acting all cold and mean towards me, doesn't he realize that if I WANTED to hurt him back, I very well could?? He seems to lose sight of that fact, and for some reason he just keeps treating me like crap. There's only so much of that I'm gonna take though.

Pete says that Peter seems to be burning the bridge completely when he says stuff like that. I just don't understand why he feels he needs to do such a thing. There's no need for him to act like a shithead. Maybe he WANTS me to be angry and hate his guts, so that I won't want anything to do with him anymore, like some kind of reverse psychology or something. I don't know. I just know that if he keeps giving me a load of crap like this, I will not hesitate to hurt him back.

So, the wedding was nice, the weekend was a good one, and everything seems to be heating up on the job front for me right now, I've got some good prospects happening this week so far. I was only put off and agitated by Peter's annoying attitude and rather hurtful email. Other than that, Pete is NOT beating me, he's NOT being mean and cruel towards me, and things are going okay so far, so I am NOT planning to move back to DC. I was merely THINKING, BRAINSTORMING of a win-win solution for David, who owns the house in DC, and since it was his wedding weekend, I figured I would ease his mind by offering him the idea of moving back until we found someone new to take over as roommate....but when I told David of my idea, he said, "No, I don't think that's necessary, I think it'll work out fine, just put an ad on craig's list and let the 2 people who live there show the place. You can be the administrator, get a new lease ready, etc., but they have to be the ones to live with the new person so let THEM decide who it'll be."

Ah well. Craig's list does work like a charm. If I ever DO decide to move back to DC, there are plenty of people who are in need of roommates to choose from. It'll be easy, and I'll do it on my own. But if Peter keeps acting like a douchenozzle, he will rue the day he ever met me. If he cannot give me the common courtesy of friendship and common decency of keeping his promises, and if he cannot be civil and decent and continue to have conversations, etc., AS that friend, then I guess he'll have to think long and hard about the consequences of the hurt he's caused me.

Bottom line: You get what you give. It all goes back to "Do unto others."

---Sassy Girl