I won't copy and paste it here, but Peter sent me the email he's been promising all week. I responded to him, and now I feel a sense of calm. I feel much better.
The bottom line of his email: He's always going to be in my life as my friend, no matter what, as he's promised many times. This means everything to me. I am glad for that. He will be there for me to talk with, he'll offer advice if I want to hear it, and he'll always care about me.
He didn't really like the comments about being vindictive against his wife and family, as I knew he wouldn't, but I was throwing a tantrum to get his attention, and it worked. My spewing about things in anger doesn't mean I would actually DO any of those things. I would NEVER do those things, because I want him to be happy and I want him to do the right thing. He has, figuratively, spanked my ass hard about that, and I am grateful for it. My apologies, and I will go forward knowing not to do that anymore.
He's not my Dom anymore. He's released me, and no longer has that responsibility, and I know this. He is and will always remain, my friend. The necklace is off. I am feeling okay again. I am facing a re-birth here, with Pete, and I have to get on with it.
I've received some closure today. Now I need a few drinks and I'll be right as rain.
---Sassy Girl
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