Journey tribute band tonight...

"Love is giving someone the power to completely destroy your world and trusting them not to"

This is a quote that a BDSM buddy of ours has on the email signature, and every time I see it, I nod in agreement. It makes you think, and from all the other myriads of quotes out there, I think it's one of the most accurate summations of "love" I've ever read.

Tonight I'm going to a local bar to watch a Journey tribute band, "Frontiers," and I THINK I've seen them before in Michigan, where the lead singer guy (who has a similarity of appearance to Steve Perry), let me have my picture taken with him, and told me he wanted my Journey t-shirt that I was wearing...so if it's the same band, I may have a fun evening flirting again. hehehehe (Hell, even if it's NOT the same band, I may have a fun night flirting anyway)! I miss my groupie days.

Ah well, so I'm feeling better now, not so upset about the job thing, because I've been proactive this week in looking for work. I've applied at several museums and colleges, and even sent off to get an application for substitute teaching. I may just go back to school to finish my teaching certification, and that way at least I know I can student teach without worrying about how to pay the bills, (that was the biggest stumbling block for me, which is why I stopped going, they don't pay you for that you know).

I have been very worried about what would happen to me if anything bad happened to Pete, because he was in a car accident the other morning. Luckily his car was the only thing hurt in the altercation, but it still made me feel like, "wow, he could croak at any moment, and THEN what the heck would happen to me?" This thought comes from never ONCE being financially dependent on anybody in my whole life. I gotta say, this has been the toughest thing for me to get used to with him, and it's not easy to have thoughts like that, because it makes me feel like running away back to DC to get a real job and forget this whole thing.

But, he told me something that I did not know...he said he's already made arrangements to take care of me even after he's gone. Confused by this, I asked him what he meant. He said he's made me the primary beneficiary of his life insurance. I had no idea that he had gone and done that, and so he explained that he will take care of me even if he's not physically here to take care of me. I was stunned, and still am. I never expected that. I mean, we aren't engaged yet or married or anything, so that is what I thought you had to be in order for someone like that to be a primary beneficiary...I've always put my mom on mine, for lack of anyone else...so that was a nice reassuring thing that helped me relax.

Time to get busy, I gotta get ready for my friend Barbara---she's is coming over this weekend. Should be a fun time tonight!

Bye for now.

Love, Sassy Girl